Monday, January 31, 2005

So much has happened since I last posted! We had our first choir trip, well, first three now I suppose. They actually went decently well. There's still a lack of word memorization, but we have most of it downpat now. I was supposed to sing in the quartet part of one song, but my voice is still giving me a ton of trouble and I'm not able to. I'm not really sure what to do about it's almost like it's more than a dietary thing. Perhaps it's time to see the doctor again...we'll see. Christian Worldview is now finished...besides and exam and a paper. I really enjoyed that class! I learned so much, and even though I didn't fully understand it, I felt so much smarter and more informed about the ways of the world today. As I sit here and think of all the things we've got due by the end of school, and all the reading I still have to finish, I become tempted to quit school! :P It's crazy how much stuff we've got to do, though this year is easier for us then it had been for past students. Well, I need to get to bed, I'll hopefully post more soon, all depending on assignments and such.

Rom. 5:11 - Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Time and time again...

I had a really happy day today...I'm not sure why, especially with some of the things that were going on, such as suicide threats from friends back home, room check cleaning, and being told I couldn't have a hug tomorrow from one of my dearest friends. I've been in a great mood! I mean I'm really tired right now, but such is life. I have to read three chapters for our class tomorrow...that's not going to be too fun. Man, I'm ruining myself day by day. So much for going to bed at eleven. It just doesn't work, no matter how many times I try. There's always so much going on! I need sleep so desperately, but I don't use my time well enough to get to bed early. I need to get my act in gear (as I keep on saying and not doing) and fix myself. It'll take a lot of prayer and hard work, but I know I can do it with God's help. He'll give me the discipline I need if that's what I sincerely desire! (No more cookies from Karen! :D)

I got a wonderful complement tonight. It was unexpected too. Apparently I've been an encouragement to a couple of the girls because when I was previously approached about a problem they noticed with me flirting I told them I would do what I could to fix the problem. And now, apparently it's fixed. I was told that I closed myself off to flirting and allowing others to flirt with me, which was awesome, and that I've allowed God to work through me in this situation. It was something I hadn't thought of in a little while so I was surprised when it came up. I personally thought I was just being myself before, and didn't really think I had changed much, but if they noticed a change, then I'm glad.

Well I'm off to do my reading and cleaning, b4n!

1 Corinthians 15:58 - Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labour is not in vain.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Love and almost impossible combination

I've had so much to think about this past week...a lot of stuff has been things I'm learning in class, but a lot has been from conversations I've had with people and things I've been noticing in my life. We've got a great teacher for two weeks teaching us Christian Worldview, or philosophy, and there are so many new concepts to look at. It's been extremely interesting though difficult in a sense to fully understand the reasoning of many of the past philosophers.

The more I think about it, the more I realize I'm just an awful person. No matter how much I want to be a good Christian, I'm not able to do it. There are many things I struggle with, like talking about people, and treating those more "unfortunate" ones with love, even when they annoy the heck out of you. God is love, and He expects us to be loving towards others, even when it can be extremely difficult. I think a lot of it is a pride thing. I have way too much pride in my life, and I tend to unintentionally put people on different levels of "importance" compared to myself and almost base that on how they should be treated. It's sad when you think about it, but it's something I'm trying to work on. We're all equal in God's eyes, so we should be treated equal. I guess we should treat others better than ourselves, because in reality we are nothing, it's just our pride that makes us think we are. Why does it have to be so difficult to do what's right?

So ya...lots of things I've got to think about this semester, many decisions I've gotta make in the next few months. It's going to be extremely busy, especially with all the drama and choir trips taking place, as well as StuCo stuff, and other activities that will most likely be taking place. It's been a good week and a half of the semester so far, though I've got a lot of reading and assignments ahead. I'm just praying that I'll be able to finish them in decent time, without a whole lot of stress. Anyhow, I'm off for the night....until next time!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Entry one of the new blogsite!

This is kind of exciting! I like some of these features much better than Xanga. So as things go right now, my dear buddy Lucas is the only one who knows this exists. It's quite funny actually...everyone will be expecting a post on my Xanga, but there won't be one! (Though I will tell them eventually) Anyhow...I can't make a long post, because I don't have time right now. We have room check tomorrow morning, and I have so much reading I need to get done in the next little while. Computers can be so frusturating! As much as I love technology and it has been a real benefit in society, it also causes a lot of problems. I can't even have a conversation over msn or this other program with my dad, using the mics, without some type of problem occuring. Oh well...such is life. Anyhow, I'll try and post sometime soon.
Bye for now!